well...

NCOTC is over. and we survived. as usual.

pre-camp feeling: worried x( and mayb.. jin zhang?
but not as extreme as certain sqms D:

went for classi shoot first.. which went.. quite bad for many sqms.
jiayuin ah.. haiz. she shoot shoot shoot forget to shoot at target coz she looking at her rearsight and front sight. best lor.

went back to school feeling rather depressed.. but got higher later coz we zi4 high while waiting for time to pass.
and so started off the camp feeling rather happy (:

and the day got increasingly depressing.
aiya. shall not elaborate.

but anw, the camp was really enriching and we really have alot of things to learn and improve on.
even though it was not fun at all.
ha. as jiebin ma'am has very directly replied "the front part of your goal wont be fulfilled" or something like that to yijung whose goal was to have fun while learning.
but yea really learnt alot ><
alot of things for us to reflect on.
we really need to sit down as a squad to discuss abt some matters.

haiz. im really not looking forward to nco life.
and we really have to control our emotions and be emotionally ALOT stronger. haiz.

today went school (again) to have present making (<-- its so obvious i dont bother to underscore this anymore -_-) then chionged lunch to chiong for tanglin land division visit.

haiz. as sqms mentioned today, we should enjoy our june hols (despite how busy we are) because we are just going to get busier when hols are over ):

depressing life.

i really have to work on chi sia. its due in.. 2 days time.

tmr have lmsc. miss khe asked if it will be 大同小异 compared to ncotc.
if it is, i will die ok. i dont want to experience such a camp ever again omg. despite really LEARNING alot. but its like practically every moment is very..tense. sensitive to environment sensitive to environment. our squad cant do this really. ever since sec 1 we have never been sensitive to the environment. we need to man4 man4 adjust to this! sarcasm doesnt work ): haiz. planning ahead too. haiz. we need to cultivate the habit of doing this.

this few days have been rather screwed for us too. we keep forgetting to do things. really cannot carry on like that ):

okay. we can do this. it will be a big change but well. jiayou bah sqms.

got lots of things to do. . .

11.29pm