shall post for the last time before i start mugging for eoys..

this week was a rather short week ._.

monday:
teachers' day cele. performance with 203'07 <3 (: teared on stage not because of the teachers :X but because of the whole class thing. it is a very heartwarming feeling to have everyone there. okay not everyone.. but almost. (: realised that i have grown quite a bit since sec 2 coz i used to be the same height as shiyun. haha :D
the whole tdc was very nice in general. 410's performance was hilarious. xiaoen and huili made everyone's day. (:

tuesday:
dont rmb what i did. was probably rotting away at home ._.

wed:
stayed back aft school for dalt rehearsal.. i love dalt. dalt is so fun. didnt realise how much i missed dalt till the first time we rehearsed for HC. i miss wu-ing shi with jung D: teaching 41 was also very fun though. hm they very 用心学.. especially glenda and peiyin.. they have to learn quite a bit in such a short time. and of course playing ard with sqms :X
then the ms neo came to see our rehearsal.. haha she's much nicer (and younger O:) than i expected. haha.
stayed back and crap (as usual) and got chased by ms khoo. haha. not that she really succeeded in chasing us out of school :X continued talking with sqms that were left in dalt room aft that. hm is that the first time we actl sat down and talk inside dalt room? talked abt more stuff aft that.. and was thinking abt stuff all the way home too.

thurs:
bio remedial and ncotc briefing aft school. nothing much to mention actl. we finished much earlier than planned lol.

fri:
ne quiz then dalt. ne quiz was ._. i wasnt really expecting sth like that (before hong told me) and the quiz was dated 2002. i wonder how many more years they will reuse it -.-
dalt was.. normal? zhan-ed jiao with jiayuin for the first time lol nvr tried with her before. and i realised that she pa4 yang3 more than pinky -.- hmm went kap for dinner aft that. wasnt very hungry though. came home and wanted to do more stuff but ended up sleeping very early.. not long aft i finished watching ming zhong haha.

today:
went to school in the morn for HSK. it was easier than the yang4 juan4 -.- took my own sweet time doing and still had time to check and stone.
did hw with sqms aft that and was almost late for guitar coz the stupid 66 didnt come after more than 10mins D:: took taxi there in the end and reached barely on time. wasted my $$ somemore. haiyo. luckily i didnt pei2 hong and pinky go np room take plastic bag ...

read a certain someone's blog just now and started thinking about stuff again. i miss the past. seriously. i think i said at least thrice? this year that i know it's impossible to go back to the past but i still cant let go. though i think i said that ive accepted it. but actl i still havent ._. it's easy to ignore when i have sth else to think about but i'll start thinking about it again whenever im not thinking of other stuff ._. which is almost daily. esp when it's happening. argh. i know there's nothing much i can do and as jlpm once said mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de but still... which is why i think i understand why _ choose to do what she's doing now. but i will nvr be able to follow in her footsteps because i wont be able to let go. and i have no one else to turn to lol. why am i stuck in this position ._. i have no idea. probably because it's a path that i chose 3 years ago and nothing will change now. hm. why did it end up like that. i have no idea either. but in life there's no turning back so. ha. 就是这样咯。i wish i can stop thinking abt it too.. maybe i will have a head concussion one day and i'll 选择性失意or sth. but while i really want to turn my back sometimes and pretend that this whole thing nvr happened i at the same time want to 'save' everything that once happened especially all the nicer parts of it all because im actl afraid that i will really forget everything one day.

dont try reading the paragraph above because only a handful of people will know bits and pieces of what im thinking now.

and yes i shall stop blogging from today till aft eoys. today marks the start of sept hols which is in the first place barely of a holiday because of eoys in 4 weeks (!!) and now even less of it because of HC performance and NCOTC. this just means that i shld start mugging now and not think about irreversible stuff.