shall post a little now since I'm on the way to mac and somehow I don't feel like sleeping so. actl I think I'm going to be late cause the bus is damn slow! D; argh stupid bus ): but anyway, post yes.

hmm just read someone's blog which makes me feel very bad for being so troubled over canoeing when it's really something trivial compared to what other people have to face in life. but I guess it's always like that isn't it? it's always so easy to get so caught up in your own world stress and pain, living in your own bubble and thoughts that you fail to notice what is really happening in the outside world.

I wish saying that would make me feel a lot better since I have few things to trouble over except canoeing but it doesn't really. sigh. it's like 10mins to reporting time at mac and I'm still stuck at like beauty world. great. but anyway I was writing in my training log yesterday that I noticed that on oct 11 I was already feeling like crap over canoeing but it has been one month already and I'm still here. time just flies when you're barely noticing and lo and behold! nats will be over and gone before you know it. will it? sigh. maybe I'll just remain passive over the whole quitting thing and I'll look back and think phew it's over.

haha and yes squadmates don't yal feel sian now that I'm back blogging but every post is about the same issue? hmmm maybe I'll just go back to my ranting blog (: and lalala it's 7.30 and I haven't even reached school. oh goodness.