Well I'm sitting on the bed in a hotel room in dalat now while everyone else is asleep and I'm just thinking about stuff. Everything has been pretty awesome on the backpacking trip so far but I'm really bothered about something and I need to talk to someone really badly about it now but I don't know who to tell and from the response I'm getting from you I feel like either you don't know how to deal with it or you're too stressed about stuff to respond properly. So here I am, in a bid to talk to you yet not talk to you. Perhaps when you're ready to find out you will find this blogpost, or maybe you won't. Idk.

So it has been four months. It has been a rollercoaster ride of four months and I think there has been pretty good ups than downs during these four months. And every time I'm with you things feel perfect, like its meant to be. But it has been more than two weeks since we last met and this break away from you kind of allowed me to step away from my happy little bubble with you and reflect upon our relationship. I don't know how this thought suddenly came to me when I should have known it right from the start. But maybe back then I thought it was a small issue and I won't have any problems handling it. But having not spent any time with you for the past two weeks and reading your blog posts and Facebook statuses it suddenly dawned upon me how much religion is part of you and how much I can't relate to that part of you. You said that its fine for us to have our differences and that we have other things in common that we both understand about each other but I can't see that at all now. Maybe I'm being pessimistic/ emotional now but i can't even put to words how much I see that Catholism makes up a huge part of who you are and how it has shaped you and your beliefs and me not knowing and understanding that part of you  equates to me not knowing you at all. And reading your blog posts and fb statuses just serve to reinforce that thought and how distant I feel from you. Like somehow a stranger is posting those words yet I know that its really you. And all this while the you that I've gotten to know is simply the superficial part of you. But I don't know what I ought to do now and I've gotten far too deep and far too invested in this relationship to pull away. And it sucks that I read your messages and know there's a lot that is on your mind now but you're not telling me.
And I'm sorry for the hurtful things that I've said to you for the past two days. I know that you're feeling stressed about work now and I feel like I ought to be there for you and I want to, but I'm just making you feel worse. :((