It's been so long since I've written something on this blog and now is a really bad time because I've so much to study and I'm far from completing. But I figured out that I can't concentrate anyway so might as well get some things off my chest. Hopefully at the end of this post I'll find my motivation to study again haha.

Anyway this isn't something that suddenly occurred to me for those who are wondering. But I think I've decided that I don't believe in love anymore.

I'm quite sure that I used to believe that everyone will have this one person that is exactly right for him/her. That there is this special someone whom you'll meet one day and who will be the one for you. But over the past year, I've seen so many couples break up and then get together with someone else and be just as happy. Doesn't this just mean that there isn't really a SOMEONE out there but in a way, anyone can do as long as you make it the right person for you? Not sure if I'm actually making sense but yeah. So the cycle of relationship goes like this: you meet someone and decide that maybe he/she is the person for you. Then when problems/differences arise, you'll try to fix it such that everything will be right again. But breakups happen because one day, either one party decides that he/she is going to give up trying to make the relationship work. With that being said, it seems like the person whom you spend the rest of your life with isn't going to be the "only one", "special someone" or the person you "truly love" but simply someone whom you end up not breaking up with.

Haha sounds so sad but oh well. This is life :P

Hopefully someday, something will happen to make me believe in love again :) Cause I guess deep down, I do hope that it exists.